When I was 15, I met this most divine woman whom was 26 at the time. She waited until I was 16 (and of legal age of consent) before asking if I'd enjoy sex with her?

When a totally HOT blonde asks you if you want sex with her? At sixteen? Wtf did you think I did? I laughed, and laughed hard!

Those were the days! Women were just throwing them selves at me all the time to fuck my brains out. And I turned them all down because of this older chick.

Sure, I kissed the odd one, danced with them, but none of them got my cock in them. That was a special thing for my older girl. I only ever fucked her during the 90's (as far as I remember?)

That said, she put a load of pressure on me with the drugs, mind games, and life style she demanded. It was too much for a sixteen year old to take - raising children, the drugs, ecetera ecetera.

Well, eventually, I had a nervous breakdown. And ruined my life as I dropped out of college.

I do not blame her - my mother does! - but I forgive the silly woman for ruining my life.

I love her to this day - and in fact - I am back at college and doing quite well!

So, perhaps my life took a detour during the 90's because of her. But, after 15 years, it is back to square one and I am wiser, older, and smarter than before so perhaps this is the right time for college rather than when I was a dumb ass teenager?

I have no regrets in life. Pretty much. But one regret I do have is losing her. I wish I never let that fucking blonde go - because she and I were made for each other!

May be one day I'll get a letter, or phone call, asking me to come over for earl grey tea with three sugars and cake. Then we'll chat, and it will be like we were never apart?

Hope you are listening, baby, I miss you.