Well - here I am some 12 months almost after first quitting the heroin. It is a good time to realise how much heroin affected my mind, and how much better off I am with out it.

I have really turned my life around. This time last year, I was nervous over a assualt case against an pensioner and this happened because I was withdrawing from crack-cocaine. There fore, if I had my fix that day, I doubt the assault would have took place :*(

That is pretty much almost behind me now. Along with the heroin and crack. We used to call it 'the dark' and a buddy of mine - albeit a mental patitent - used to say 'Don't dwell on the dark side' as an in joke with us. It was really true tho. No one can dwell on the dark side with out it destroying them.

Okies, heroin was a bitch of a life choice - so - I am glad I am taking subutex now.

Speaking of subutex - my teacher said; 'Why take some thing that makes you feel worse rather than better?' - this is because subutex in the mornings when it has worn off makes me rattle my tits off.

Subutex is a pure opiate - and must be respected otherwise it will burn you, badly. I learned this lesson the hard way - and got thru to the other side with subutex. Its a great drug for stopping the withdrawal of heroin though. It works perfectly. And subutex means you cannot take heroin on top of the subutex - because you risk overdosing and death.

Written by: Anonymous for Blacker Media